Time files...

Since last a few days, I was up and down but I had recurring nightmares made feel worse. I sought my best friend and my second mom to cheer me up which usually did work for me. Now I feel much better thank to them. My mind is fragile and dangerous so I fought to not having suicidal thoughts so I'm focusing to my pack things before I move out.

After when I move out, my life would change and get better but I must change my new address on my many thing such as insurance card etc. Also, unpack things. I think this will keep me very busy and I won't have some flashback of my past or of my nightmares soon.

I've begun to pack small things to begin with, this week I will buy some plastic boxes instead of cartoon because this would stay hold together and easy to move. I think also to buy dirty clothes basket.

Yesterday, I bought a new bedding set, I got it for 70$ instead of 200$ at Linen Chest! Wow! It's definitely a jackpot for me! I had a very old blanket that causing my skin to itch ( rashes ). Thank God I have no rashes for now.

Oh Today it's my BIRHTDAY!!! Time files! I'm young although I feel old. Hahaha. Anyway, I will not have a party so I will be with my best friend. Last time I had my birthday party was in 2005 and it's been 11 years I haven't celebrated with my friends. Because it was my ex-boyfriend did host it for me by surprise. I tried to have one and nobody would come, they hate me? I think so but I had my ex best friend and former friend went over at bowling alley last year with me. It was quite boring because my former best friend came very late with a sad excuse from his dad. Maybe next year will be better :).

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Melody xo